Saturn

lyrics

i'll find peace in hoping youre peaceful

if it'll help ease the knowing you're gone

and the pieces of me that are grateful

outnumber the pieces of you that i lost

and i'm famously bad at the time thing

so i'll tell my sister it's only the timing

but when i say that i'm lucky

to love you from a distance

it's the same way i'm lucky

to know of saturns existence

i'll take blame for how it all ended

but it'll still break me to drive home alone

'cuz the places we've been are all tainted

by all of the places that we'll never go

and i've always been good at complaining

so i'll admit it that this time it's more of the same thing

but i'll still say that i'm lucky

to love you from a distance

in the same way i'm lucky

to know of saturns existence

Behind the Song

my best friend casually dropped this absolute bar "we're so lucky to know about saturn". and that hit really hard. i'll never see saturn from up close, but it's beautiful to know it's out there. saturn is this beautiful soul that i almost had, but i lost her. I'm still so grateful to know she's there and to hope she's ok, but i'm forced to stay away. i wrote the song within a couple days, and texted the wonderful Grace Budge to record it with me. this is one of the most meaningful things i've ever done for myself. and now i'm sharing it with you. i hope you love it as much as i do